Most Memorable Moment Journal

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  We all need to lean on someone, we want someone to hear our problems, to give us comfort. I think the most memorable part was when Christine opened up about her life to Carson. She had no one in her life but Carson and when they both sat down together and talked, it made me feel happy that Christine is being honest. I chose this part because as I read this part and went on to several chapters ahead but I still would pause in the middle of the book and think about the scene. I wonder, how Carson felt and how Christine felt?

  This scene takes place when Christine and Carson have just moved into their new home, it wasn't really something anyone would want to live in because it was an old shack that had no electricity or running water. Carson has been wondering what the marks on Christine's hands were but he never had the courage to ask her. Dr. Cromwell has warned him about Christine because Cromwell thought that she had cut herself purposely and might influence Carson to do it too.  It was cold out and Christine had wrapped herself beside Carson with a blanket that barely kept them warm.

   She fell asleep but then she began to scream, and yell, Carson didn't understand what was happening. For all he knew, she was having a bad dream. He tried waking her up but she kept screaming "NO". He didn't know what to do but then she finally opened and began to cry. He looked at her eyes, and saw the pain and anger in it. Carson held her and she said" I'm afraid of being alone". Carson replied" You aren't I'm here with you".  As I was growing up I would come to an empty home, my mom and dad wouldn’t be around. Even if they were they would argue with each other. Her mother left with another guy and her dad left too. Her mother came once in a while but Christine felt like she had no friends. Since she was alone at night she felt nothing and when she cut herself she felt pain. She has stopped now but sometimes the memories come back.

   Even though Carson is bitter and Christine is someone who is rejected , when they are together, love makes them closer and makes the world that they hate have a slim of happiness. Both of them falling in love turned the darkness in their life's to light.

  I think that part of was very emotional for Christine, I can't imagine someone in their teen years blaming themselves for their parents mistakes. I feel so bad for Christine she blamed herself for all of it and cut herself. Depression probably caused her to do this, so when she met Carson she was able to tell him everything and show her the love that she never got. It breaks my heart that her parents weren't around and I know this is a fictional book but many people go through this in the world.

  This scene has made me open my eyes to a bigger picture; Having a friend is important, and I think the people who are depressed in the world and have suicidal thoughts, maybe if they had a friend it would all change. I find this memorable because now Christine doesn't have this burden in her and Carson doesn't have to wonder what caused her scars. It leaves all questions answered. When you tell someone your pain your able to go on and forgive yourself and others, this scene has allowed me to appreciate what I have; my family and those who are there for me. I now know maybe the littlest thing someone has to say may change their life and even yours.